numb

Not really sure where I'm at.
Yesterday was a good day.
Daniella came over, spent the day with me.
Last night I started mood stablizers.
made me feel like a zombie.
I felt like I was sleep walking when I got up to pee (and eat cake) at 4am.
my eyes woulndt stay open. I felt heavy. it was an odd feeling.
I had a hard time waking up this morning as well.
I had a nice 1 1/2 hour shower this morning.
made plans to have lunch with a coach/friend from high school on tuseday.
its good for me to get out and see people. but I cant do large crowds or anything overly stimulating as I'll end up having an anxiety attack.

I'm officially on medical leave from work again. for a minimum of 4weeks. I dont know how I feel about that yet.

A week from today I start my IOT (intensive outpatient therapy)
4hrs a day, 3 days a week.
I'm not really looking forward to that at all, but if it helps, I'll do it.

I guess thats really it for now.


(P.S. my pacemaker has 7months left)